A Heartfelt Letter to My Father in Heaven on Father’s Day

Dad,

I know you tried your best to be a good father. My sister and I were the lucky ones, I guess. I understand you had other children you didn’t share your life with. I’m not here to judge you for that; I know you had your reasons.

You were a flawed man, as most of us are. You struggled in life like many from your generation who faced similar challenges. But I want you to know I appreciate you trying and being a part of our lives.

You know I’m a father too, and I’m doing my best to be a good one. I know I spoil my son, but I have my reasons for what I do. Like you, I carry my own struggles, and I have my own ways of trying to make amends for my past mistakes. I believe I’m doing a good job; he’s growing into a great young man.

We didn’t speak much while you were here, and I deeply regret that. That was both your fault and mine. I tried to keep the connection. But now it’s too late, so I speak to you here as I shed tears on this Father’s Day.

I tried not to think of it, as you always said, “It’s just another day.” But no matter how I try to avoid it, I keep seeing the posts celebrating fathers on Facebook and Twitter. I can’t hide from the fact that you’re not here, and I miss you, old man. We didn’t have much between us, but I wish I could have even that little time back.

I miss you, Pops. You’re gone, and I’m left here. I’m trying to live every day the best I can—to be a good man, a good father, a good husband, a good son. Every single day, I try to be better. I’m sure you’d be proud of your son.

I miss you, Dad, and I wish you a happy Father’s Day in heaven.

The following video is a few weeks old, but I suppose it is relevant.