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This is a recent picture of me. I’m entirely naked in this picture, but obviously I blurred out my man parts. As you can see here, there’s still a layer of body fat for me to burn. I’m working on that. But in this picture you can truly see how close I am to flattening out my stomach.
Understand that I am not a super confident person when it comes to my body. I’m getting comfortable with myself one day at time. Slowly. I have some serious body image issues and I’ve felt unhappy in my own skin for a long time. I don’t know exactly when or where it happened, but that’s the truth.
It’s likely that one of the contributing factors to my physical demise was that I let myself go so that my external body would match my mindset. However, I’ve gotten better about that and though I still struggle with insecurities and stuff, and much fairer to myself and my hard work.
Once again, I’m naked in this pic, being able to post this and not worry too much about it from a shame standpoint is a pretty big deal for me. I’m not perfect, my 6 pack of abs is not visible yet, but I’m still choosing to honor my hard work up to this point. I’m respecting the process, the journey and recognizing that I’ve done some great work even though I’ve not yet hit my goals.
As far back as I can recall, I have always worn a vest, even during the hot weather months. One time one of my best buddies said to me, “Angel, that shit ain’t working, I still know you are a fat fuck. Stop trying to hide it!” He was roasting me of course, but he made a very valid point. I was so uncomfortable with myself that I was trying to hide it and cooking myself during the summer months wearing a winter vest to try and mask what I was.
I’m not yet where I want to be physically or mentally. But I have come a long way and I know that the only way to continue going is forward. I own this! I advise you to do the same! Own it, correct it if you must, but acknowledge who you are today!
Best of luck on your journey!