Recently, a friend of mine asked me what my secret sauce was for staying motivated with my training. She said she couldn’t understand how I keep dieting, day in and day out. It baffles her how I don’t lose my way and get disappointed or give up while fighting this battle.
Here’s the thing though, who says that I don’t struggle? Who says that I don’t experience setbacks or disappointments? Who says that I don’t get frustrated with my work and results? Who says that I don’t want a slice of pizza right now?
One of the things that I’ve tried to do during this journey is to be extremely transparent. The reason my friend doesn’t see or know this is because she doesn’t have me on her social media. Since she’s not connected to me on the webosphere, it stands to reason that she doesn’t see all the many posts that I write about my struggles and how discouraging it can be to wake up one day feeling so bloated and fat despite having done 3 hours of cardio and eaten 2 leaves!
In fact, the day before she wrote to me, I had put this post up on my social media channels:
It’s taking forever and it’s hard af, but I’m not gonna stop y’all. I can get hurt, I can get sick, I can be exhausted, these will only be setbacks. They will not stop the show! I have some big goals, and I’m gonna hit them! It’s almost April, I’m not where I want to be, or expected to be, but there is only one way to go, forward. Barring death or serious injury, nothing will stop me.
As you can see from that post, I experience setbacks too. I have moments where I feel like all this is for nothing. I have moments where I question my methods. Some days I’m so tired and achy, my joints hurt, and I just want to stop. Some days I feel like screaming or crying because it’s so hard and I still haven’t reached my goals.
The difference between me and those who fail is simply that I don’t see giving up as an option. Returning to that which I was is just not an option for me. Therefore, whether or not I’m progressing fast enough, or at all, moving backwards is just not an option. I cannot, and will not give up on my goals. I understand that this is a marathon, not a sprint. Its gonna take time, and then after that, its gonna take even more time. That’s all there is to it.
Just a life long New Yorker sharing the journey through my lens. Please take note of a post’s date. The views I express here are subject to change and evolving as I grow and learn.
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