I’m an emotional person. This is a fact. I may appear to have a rough, hard exterior, but this only shields a soft core.
Today as I lay contorting my body on the floor, after a long, strenuous week of training, the classical music felt more penetrating to me. The song touched me as I felt the stress and ache momentarily melting away. There were others in the room, but they were unaware of the moment I was having. This moment was known only to me.
Our instructor provided the direction, his voice gentle and soothing, giving rhythmic instructions. There goes that classical music again. My body aches, it hurts, but it feels good. I’m moved, I feel emotions flowing through my body, there are no thoughts, just a feeling. I cannot describe it to you, because I cannot describe it to myself. It was just a feeling, a deep, powerful feeling. It wanted to get out, and it flowed gently through my body as I stretched.
Lay on the mat in a prone position.
I lay my head on the paper towel and rubber mat. I’m breathing heavily, my body is warm, and I’m covered in sweat. This isn’t like kickboxing or like insanity. I’m not grunting and powering through hard movements; I’m trying to breathe gently while moving slowly and controlling all motions.
Breathe in, breathe out…
I’m recovering my breath. I’m strong. My body aches; I’m tired. I’ve logged more training hours this week than most people do in a month, and I still have three more classes tomorrow. I’m strong but tired. This feels good, but I’m tired. I won’t quit; I’ll push my body to the limit. I don’t have to do this, I don’t need to do this; I want to do this. I was there because I wanted to be there. I’m tired, but I want it.
Lay down on your back, supine position, and rest.
I lay back, close my eyes, still moist and warm. The classical music is still playing, and my muscles feel like jello. I’m strong, but they are tired. We didn’t quit.
Thank you very much, it’s all over.
I stand and say to myself, I needed that so badly. The core movements, the stretching, the relaxation almost moved me to tears. I’m emotional. I’m strong, but I’m emotional. We didn’t quit.
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